Am I losing my mind?

I feel like I am losing my mind! That stupid inconsiderate asshole! I sure hope that he is bleeding out and not just a jerk! How could I be dumb enough to think that he was actually grown up enough to talk to me like grown-ups do? And the worst thing is that I do this all the time.....I put entirely too much hope in stupid men! The thing is that if he didn't want to talk to me anymore that is all fine and dandy, and if he is getting it somewhere else that is fine too, we are both adults or that is what I thought. What's the deal, your *ucking some girl and now we don't talk? Just have the balls to call and say that. We were good enough friends for you to sing me songs on the beach and now you are a cowardly slug? How does that happen in a matter of days? The last conversation was normal, you were going to bed for the night and you were missing me and where we used to hang out. We talked almost everyday and sometimes all day long and then all of the sudden your head has been crammed this far up your ASS! I am so tired of worrying about him and I am trying really hard to be done. I will feel terrible if anything really bad has happen to him......I just want to know! It is the whole not knowing that is making me feel like I need to be commited. What the hell?