I find this whole thing quite comical today. A week or so ago I was really confused about what was going on with Philly and I. None of that has been solved, it only become more complicated last night. Now in the light of day and the absence of alcohol. I have come to realize that I have been more and more restless with the whole Philly thing because I am tired of being his call girl. Don't get me wrong it was loads of fun in the beginning. Then the fog and the mixed signals started. Night before last Philly and I went out to dinner with another couple, it was fun and relaxed. I thought the whole thing was a bit weird especially because he has been going from hot to cold so much lately. Hot him saying, I missed you this weekend. Cold him saying, I am going to bed. (at 8pm) I have been taking one day at a time and in hindsight have been letting him get away with his hot and then cold behavior. Last night was the last straw. Conversation goes a bit like this: P: I can't see you tonight. V: no big deal. P: how about tomorrow night? V: I am busy remember? P: OK Thursday night? V: leaving town. P: I guess you will have to wait to see me til next week. V: whatever, do you think that I am holding my breath for you? P: Maybe we need to reaffirm what our relationship really is. V: I think maybe YOU do. (full of sarcasm) I know that we are just sleeping together. P: that's right we are just sleeping together. My phone rings, it's my sister I chat with her for a minute because really I am already done with this whole little talk. I tell her I will see her in a minute. P: well it looks like you are going to be entertained I guess you don't need me. V: I guess not. P: why do you have to be so cold? V: Oh did I miss the memo that we are all of the sudden more than sleeping together? P: that's all we are. V: funny, why are you jealous? What is that look on your face whenever I get a text? Why if we are only sleeping together, did you find it necessary to tell me you were getting a divorce? Was that even true or are you just trying to still your own conscience? P: It was true. I was trying to help you out because you are catching all sorts of slack from B and your family because of me. V: I don't need your help, I am a big girl! P: I know, I will see you tomorrow night. I will be waiting for you at 9:30. V: Hold your breath til I get there!What a stupid fucking prick! This song has been in my head for weeks now. I wonder why?
I don't wanna wake up with another. But I don't wanna always wake up with you either. No you can't hop into my shower. All I ask for is one ***kin' hour. You taste so sweet. But I can't eat the same thing every day. Cuttin off the phone. Leave me the ***k alone. Tomorrow I'll be beggin' you to come home. It's called leave me alone (I'm Lonely) by Pink on her "I'm not dead" album.-V
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I have that album! It's on my iPod (along with a zillion others) but I have it I have it I have it. It's brilliant isn't it? People just don't get it that it's so brilliant. And it is. There's just the one track on it that's absolute shit but the rest is Ambrosia for the ears. Brilliant. Right. Shutting up now. But very excited.
I also have that album, though I have to express my surprise at CO having it as well... I had him down as a rugged manly IT consultant type...
[puffs up chest with pride]
Thanks.
Actually I wouldn't tell too many people I have that album. Certainly not the people who know me. Although, thinking about it, the people who know me know that my taste of music runs from [gets out iPod] a-Ha to Yael Naim and includes Adele, Beautiful South, Billy Bragg, The Delays, Everything But The Girl, Foo Fighters, Guns N Roses, The Housemartins, Imogen Heap, Jim Steinman, Kate Havnevik, The Killers, Led Zeppelin, Linkin Park, Manic Street Preachers (of course!), Massive Attack, Missy Higgins, Morrissey, Nirvana, The Orb, Pendulum (brill!), Portishead, Prince, Razorlight, Sigur Ros, Stereophonics, Sugababes (sorry about that), Timbaland, Vampire Weekend, Wax Audio (Australia's greatest invention!) and XTC.
Yeah. TMI. Sorry. But that's only handful of the eight days worth of music I carry around with me.
I don't have the album (unless Newbie has put it on my ipod...)
That's tough though Girl I. I hate the mixed signals thing, when someone can't make up their mind for whatever reason and then expect you to be able to read it. Very frustrating. I was getting alot of that from Trouble before she left, the most frustrating thing is I'm still a mess for her. I hope you get what you want from Philly.
Kiwi
C, you seem to have switched the comments off on your interview post!
I wish you the very best sparkly kind of luck. I hope you get a great offer which then throws you into even more of a dilema! A good dilema though
xx
Oops the settings changed when I moved the blog. I think I fixed it, we'll see in a minute when V finishes posting.
Kiwi, you should borrow the album, it's great fun.
CO, wow you have an eclectic collection of music. Good taste.
C
I'm glad you guys are giving some thoughts on poor V's dilemmas, I don't always know what to tell her. Thanks. She wears my brain out sometimes.
C, you are the one that refuses to share your therapist with me! Selfish. I do appreciate all the help, and advice from one and all. I don't think I would be the stable person that I am today with out it. lol-V
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