Giddyup!

"Back in the saddle, home on the range." I know that I have heard this in a song, I will be damned if I can remember, who or when. Whatever.

Happy Halloween! TGIF and all that stuff. I have put one foot in the stirrup of dating, yet again. Why do I do this to myself? Because it's fun? Not really. Alas we all do it. It's actually not that bad this go around. heh So far.

I think that I might have mentioned Chad in the past? He is my friend K's brother. (Funny shit! I don't use my friends real names, but I will the boys.) Back to me. We have hung around the same group on and off. We have never really spent much time actually one on one or anything. We have been getting pressure to get together from all the group for a while now. Sad thing is that we were both holding back to spite them. ha That will teach them to think that we might have fun together. Turns out we are both freshly out of relationships. We hung out last night. Not because of the pressure from the group, but because there is nothing for our age group to do around here. *spite* Interestingly enough, we had a great time. We have a ton of things in common. We had actual conversations, with clothes on. In fact we didn't even take our clothes off last night. Spooky, I know. He is going to join in the festivities tonight. I am actually looking forward to it. I think that he and I will be great friends. Since we are both a bit gun shy right now, this may be just what the doctor ordered.

That was nice and positive. Now since things are all calm and cozy let's throw a big fat wrench into the works? Last night Chad and I went to the pub after the haunted house. Some of our group was there and I thought that maybe it would not be so awkward if we were all together. It really wasn't uncomfortable at all. Like I say, Chad and I have alot in common. Now comes the wrench. It has taken the form of a Air force Pilot that I used to date. The very nice, tall, dark and handsome, rock hard abs and perfect white teeth, wrench. In fact the tool box and wrench situation was also very nice. Shit. He was one of the relationships that was in the wrong place at a more wrong time. That was 3 years ago. Things have changed. For both of us. I don't want to jeopardize the friendship with Chad. But I sure as hell am not going to walk away from my hot ass Pilot either.

This ought to be a very interesting weekend.-V