Well.......

A date. I went out with a really nice guy last night, Jace. The problem is that I just don't feel any sort of attraction to him. We went out to dinner and then for a beer. He is pretty easy to talk to and we do have things in common. I just can't see us being more than friends. What's the deal with me? Nice guy=no attraction. Asshole=hot. Great, just great.

Dave. My friends have been telling me that my heart is not in it with Jace, because it is already elsewhere. True, I think? I do like Dave and I could spend the rest of my life with him. I just don't see why it has to be so hard for us to find common ground on the whole relationship thing. Just another one of life's great mysteries I guess. He thinks that it is a bad idea for us to see other people, but he won't stake his claim either. What up?

Philly. Stupid ass face. He is going to be here after the holidays. He hasn't called me yet. But I know it's coming. He told my *SDG that he misses me and he feels bad for the way things ended. He has had alot going on in his life. All I hear is blah blah blah. He is an inconsiderate asshole. The worst part is that he is freaking HOT! Shit.

Jason. Dumb boy. He thinks that my friends and I don't talk amongst ourselves? ^shaking my head^ Will boys never learn? First he tells my friend K that he and I broke up because I was too into the relationship and that I wouldn't give him space. My friends know better and call me so that we can laugh about that together. He has been talking all sorts of random shit all over town. Duh, did you really think that I would not hear it? I tried to be nice. I was even OK with us at least being friends. Not so much anymore. Another funny thing---he got involved with a group of swingers! He was telling the whole bar about it. Thinking that we would be jealous. Um no, **we stay away from them on purpose. Nasty.

Whatever happen to nice and normal? Oh wait, I don't know anything about nice and normal.-V

*Sugar Daddy Gary-he told me that if I was going to be upset with him then he wouldn't hang out with Philly when he was here. A nice gesture but I can't exactly tell him who he can and can't be friends with.
**Nothing wrong if Swinging is your lifestyle. We just happen to know that this group, don't care if their kids are in the same house. Not cool.