I feel betrayed. Violated. Sworn off. Left for dead in the desert. I feel like there must have been something that I did wrong. Maybe it's my own fault. They keep telling me it's not. It's just one of those things that happen. The anger has eluded me until now. Here it is. I thought that crying for a minute was all the emotion that I could muster. That was before the tears started and just won't stop. There are so many things that need to be decided in the blink of an eye. But that's not enough time. There just isn't enough time. Why don't I get a choice? What did I do to lose the chance to at least have a say in my life?
I have heard the same song and dance a few times before. Did I really think that this would hurt less? It has happened this way over and over again. Usually the anger isn't quite this bad. But then again the percentage just keeps getting worse and worse. "There is less than a 20% chance that you will ever be able to conceive a child, the percentage is even worse that you would actually be able to carry it to term." I might have never chosen to have children, but now I don't get a choice at all.-v
3 years ago
5 comments:
So sorry. I hope your friends and family are supporting you and maybe in the future they can help you more?
Sorry I don't have better advice etc
Kate xx
I feel almost guilty about all the love and support I have gotten from my friends and family. I feel like it's all about me all the time and that I don't pay enough attention to them. This is just a little rough patch, nothing that time and alcohol won't heal. Thanks for your input:)
Dont feel guilty, it IS all about you darling. and besides "very unlikely" is not impossible. "very unlikely" things happen all the time. (twice in the case of "her indoors)
You can always go back to plan A. Well maybe not always, and maybe that's not easy. I'm sorry, it sucks to not even have a choice.
C
Hugs. It hurts. I'm sorry. xxx
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