"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."
-Marilyn Monroe
-Marilyn Monroe
It is truly amazing how something that is typed on a computer, can be translated. Even if you try not to let them, the feelings come out. DAMN! Fine you're all right about this one. Philly has some sort of magnetic pull on me that is getting stronger and stronger. Yes Newbie, I am in a bit of trouble already. C keeps quiet to me even though she has seen right through me for weeks now. CO takes the cake on this one! Since the beginning of the Philly saga I have been trying to keep him at arms length. The detachment of emotions is safer. I thought that if I played it this way, I wouldn't be sad when he left. I have "been there done that" with the out of town boys. I know the way they roll. I was going to try and play this one on the down low. (or like a gangsta by the sound of it) These guys blow into town and then out of town. They travel for a living and if you think that you are going to talk one into staying for you, you are crazy. Then of course if the two of you are "together" and he leaves can you really trust him while he is on the road? (I have truly found new faith in such a possibility because of CO) Unless in fact you are T and well that's another story. Truly at first I thought that I could get away from emotional attachment this time. Foiled again!
It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone - so far.
-Marilyn Monroe
-V
2 comments:
Damn cuddlers! They ruin everything..haha. Just kidding but I see your point with this one. I can see you getting a little attached and also enjoying him more than guys that I have seen you date in the past. I know you don't want the aftermath though. The calls here and there and then the fade off into the sunset. I realize you have unattached your emotions so that when he is gone it's over. I am still pulling for ... I can't remember what you called him.. let's call him Joe. Yeah I'm pulling for him. Good luck! Sadly you can't decide fate. We will have to watch and see who wins V. ;)
C
There is nothing wrong with cuddling! It's good for you. Trust me, I'm a doctor. Well ok, I'm not. But trust me. It really is good for you. But emotions, they really are the tricky little blighters! If you can, keep the space but don't work at keeping the space to the extent that you aren't who you are (I know what I mean!). Be you. Enjoy life. But try for that little bit of separation if you can get it. I once made love with a woman who told me she loved me during sex - even though she plainly didn't, it was just that there was so much emotion going on during that moment. When we did agree that what we had wasn't going anywhere it was OK. The 'love' was just a short-lived thing - for one act only. But I still think fondly of her and I hope she does of me. But bottom line? Enjoy and be yourself.
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